Find you in the dark (by A. Meredith Walters) Review

This is a review by Dee. You can check Elle’s review here.

In an attempt to catch up with my beautiful friend’s book addiction, which by the way, was caused by me (long story on that), I finally finished a book in her recommendation list. I’ve started reading a couple of books she recommended but I’m lack the motivation to finish them.  This book however, I finished without much complain. Not in the speed of light she she did, but I finished and actually enjoyed it and felt like I didn’t waste my time.

The plot

The plot is engaging, there was no dull moment, there was always something happening that makes you anticipate. I dislike the moment in romance book where all the characters do is make sweet cheesy love and say sweet cheesy thing. I like to add cheese in my cooking, but too much of it can overwhelm the taste of the whole dish. It’ll be like eating a cheese block.

I like happy endings but actually didn’t mind the not so happy ending in this book. I don’t feel the rush to want to read the second instalment. Had it not have Epilogue, I would tear my hair off but the Epilogue gave me closure. Actually, had it have a happy ending, it would have been forgettable to me. The ending made me think. I like that in a book. I like pondering about random stuffs in life. Things with no answer.

The Subplot

What’s even cooler than the plot is the subplot. I love books with great subplot! It makes the book double interesting. The story of Rachel and Daniel, the female’s heroine’s best friend, is adorable! Often stories have a half-hearted subplot that’s added just because the writer needs a side character to come in between the main characters. Often it makes you want to skip the page so you can get on with the main plot.

There was one thing that I was slightly disappointed with the subplot: we didn’t get to see first hand how Rachel and Daniel made up after Rachel revealed her feelings for him. It would be cool to see how the two interacts at that point of the story. All we got was the summary by Rachel when she was telling Maggie about it.

The Writing

The writing was simple and easy to follow. No unexplained big words, no convoluted sentences. Thumbs up from me. I dislike book that makes me feel stupid because I have to consult dictionary every five words or reread a sentence five times because I can’t figure out what it’s trying to tell me.

There were some spelling mistakes, I spot about four. I’m sure plenty grammar nazis out there have willingly pointed them out to the writer so I won’t bother listing them. To me it’s forgiveable for a 99c ebook. It’s not that many to disturb my enjoyment.

The Characters


Maggie is damn cool. She’s impulsive but that’s normal for a teenager. I like the fact that she’s a teenager so her actions and reactions are normal for her age. It will be different had she been a woman in her twenties. I would have complained how blind and stupid she is. So I’m glad the writer made her a teenager! I like how she knows the consequences of her actions. I like that in a person. If you decide to take a risk, you should at least know what your risks are. Not jump in there blindly and then complain about the consequences. For example, everytime she lied to her parents, she knew if she gets caught she would get in trouble. When she did get caught, she accepted the punishment and not hold grudges against her parents. That, I think, is way cool.

I also like that while she often behaves like a love sick person, in her head, she’s still thinking logically and is not afraid to stand up for herself. The best moment in the book for me is the time she slapped Clay. That’s golden!!!

She also try to move on when bad things happen. She may be moping inside but she tries her best not to let it affect her daily life. She still studies, goes out with her friends and does things with her parents. I dislike people who victimise themselves, lock themselves in their room and cry for seven days and seven nights, and use it as an excuse to ditch their responsibilities.

As I was reading the book, there were many many times where I have to smile or even laugh, not because the story is funny but because Maggie sounds so much like my cohost of this blog. Oh yeah, she’s pretty cool that woman. More on that in another post.


Clay is clinically ill and behaves like one. So not much I can say there. As much as I like to complain about his clinginess and stupidity, I can’t because it’s expected and it’s vital to the story. Without this trait there will be no story.

Maggie’s parents

I like how the writer makes them act like any normal parents would. She doesn’t make them the super cool parents nor the super annoying parents. They’re cool within their limits. They react to things like any parents would.

Clay’s parents

This is where my complain would lie. Not because they’re heartless, selfish, and ignorant, that’s alright to me as these traits are necessary to make the story, but because I can’t recall an explanation why they are the way they are. It would be nice to know some background information about why they behave this way.


She’s adorable. She’s such a good friend. She’s as lovable as the main character. I’m so glad the writer makes her the way she is. She makes your heart warm and bring a smile to your lips even in the darkest part of the story. Very refreshing.


He has the same effect as Rachel and doubles as an object of Clay’s jealousy. A multi purpose character! Very clever. Much better than introducing an extra character that does nothing than being a jerk who makes Clay jealous.

Ruby and Lisa

Clay’s aunt and her partner sound like really cool people. I would love to see more of their interaction with Clay and I would love to see how they stand up for Clay in front of his parents. I think these two could have been featured more in the story.

My verdict

I’d say 4.5 out of 5. It’s a pretty damn good story but there are rooms for improvements. It can still be perfected.


Light in the Shadow (by A Meredith Walters)


 “… The choices we make in your life don’t have to define us. It’s what we learn from them that’s important…”

“You are everything good in my life. Even when I thought all I had was the darkness, you were there. And you gave me something to live for. I couldn’t let you go. No matter how hard I tried. I know now that’s because to lose ou would be losing the very best part of myself”

This book is the sequel of Find you in the dark. Read this right after Find you in the dark.

The story took you on Clay’s journey to deal with his condition and to come terms with it.


Healing and Endurance. And most of all courage.

Unlike the first book, Light in the Shadow written with dual POV, giving us a glimpse on how Clay perceive everything and it makes it even more powerful as we learn to understand his thought process and his feeling.


…. Our path would never be smooth but I hadn’t lied when I said good things were never easy. And I was okay with going that hard way. Because as long as she was beside me, as long as we’re together, I knew we could face everything.

The sequel wont dissapoint you. It has a HEA ending, so its all great! I don’t think i could read it if it doesn’t guarantee a HEA. Most importantly ifs full of even more strong message of hope at the end of a tunnel. I love it!

Another 5 stars reading that i could truly say not a waste of time and worth the zombie state i was in the next day due to the lack of sleep thanks to the book.

Its not a knight shining armour saving the day kinda book, its deep and meaningful and simply real. After all, life is hardly a fairy tale. It’s all come down to how bad you’re willing to work things out for the road to happiness and this story showed that even when things seems hard and life gets tough, you could make it.


5 stars definitely! *****


Find you in the dark (by A. Meredith Walters)




“I’m not sure what’s going on with you. But I’m not going anywhere”

“Why don’t you let me decide what I deserve. Now, tell me what’s going on with you. Obviously you’re going through something and I’d like to help you if you’d let me”

The Author beautifully written this powerful story that felt real and help us to understand mental illness and how difficult the challenges that they’re facing.

I fell in love with Maggie Young straight away for the strong character, not afraid to speak her mind and has a great sense of loyalty for her friendship. Through her, I get to fall in love with Clay and all his baggage while trying to understand and accept what he faced.

Promises were easy to make but even easier to break

Its a beautiful love story of redemption, healing and courage. A very real story that brings awareness on condition that society tends to cover up and almost taboo topics for some.

I have learned that sometimes “sorry” is not enough. Sometimes you actually have to change

“I’m a mess. If I were selfless, I’d make you leave. I know I’m a lot to deal with . I’m no where close to getting handle on things. But I’m not lying when i say you make me feel like I can do it. If you’re with me, I can do anything.”

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Its written beautifully with enough sarcasm that make you smile.

I love the story.. I love the messages of the story.. Love the characters and love the author for writing such stories so beautifully.

Sometimes, love cant make everything better, and the best thing for everyone is to walk away. No matter how much it may hurt

Love! Love it!

Its a powerful story of love… Hope..among everything else! Just read it already!!

5 stars *****