Find you in the dark (by A. Meredith Walters) Review

This is a review by Dee. You can check Elle’s review here.

In an attempt to catch up with my beautiful friend’s book addiction, which by the way, was caused by me (long story on that), I finally finished a book in her recommendation list. I’ve started reading a couple of books she recommended but I’m lack the motivation to finish them.  This book however, I finished without much complain. Not in the speed of light she she did, but I finished and actually enjoyed it and felt like I didn’t waste my time.

The plot

The plot is engaging, there was no dull moment, there was always something happening that makes you anticipate. I dislike the moment in romance book where all the characters do is make sweet cheesy love and say sweet cheesy thing. I like to add cheese in my cooking, but too much of it can overwhelm the taste of the whole dish. It’ll be like eating a cheese block.

I like happy endings but actually didn’t mind the not so happy ending in this book. I don’t feel the rush to want to read the second instalment. Had it not have Epilogue, I would tear my hair off but the Epilogue gave me closure. Actually, had it have a happy ending, it would have been forgettable to me. The ending made me think. I like that in a book. I like pondering about random stuffs in life. Things with no answer.

The Subplot

What’s even cooler than the plot is the subplot. I love books with great subplot! It makes the book double interesting. The story of Rachel and Daniel, the female’s heroine’s best friend, is adorable! Often stories have a half-hearted subplot that’s added just because the writer needs a side character to come in between the main characters. Often it makes you want to skip the page so you can get on with the main plot.

There was one thing that I was slightly disappointed with the subplot: we didn’t get to see first hand how Rachel and Daniel made up after Rachel revealed her feelings for him. It would be cool to see how the two interacts at that point of the story. All we got was the summary by Rachel when she was telling Maggie about it.

The Writing

The writing was simple and easy to follow. No unexplained big words, no convoluted sentences. Thumbs up from me. I dislike book that makes me feel stupid because I have to consult dictionary every five words or reread a sentence five times because I can’t figure out what it’s trying to tell me.

There were some spelling mistakes, I spot about four. I’m sure plenty grammar nazis out there have willingly pointed them out to the writer so I won’t bother listing them. To me it’s forgiveable for a 99c ebook. It’s not that many to disturb my enjoyment.

The Characters


Maggie is damn cool. She’s impulsive but that’s normal for a teenager. I like the fact that she’s a teenager so her actions and reactions are normal for her age. It will be different had she been a woman in her twenties. I would have complained how blind and stupid she is. So I’m glad the writer made her a teenager! I like how she knows the consequences of her actions. I like that in a person. If you decide to take a risk, you should at least know what your risks are. Not jump in there blindly and then complain about the consequences. For example, everytime she lied to her parents, she knew if she gets caught she would get in trouble. When she did get caught, she accepted the punishment and not hold grudges against her parents. That, I think, is way cool.

I also like that while she often behaves like a love sick person, in her head, she’s still thinking logically and is not afraid to stand up for herself. The best moment in the book for me is the time she slapped Clay. That’s golden!!!

She also try to move on when bad things happen. She may be moping inside but she tries her best not to let it affect her daily life. She still studies, goes out with her friends and does things with her parents. I dislike people who victimise themselves, lock themselves in their room and cry for seven days and seven nights, and use it as an excuse to ditch their responsibilities.

As I was reading the book, there were many many times where I have to smile or even laugh, not because the story is funny but because Maggie sounds so much like my cohost of this blog. Oh yeah, she’s pretty cool that woman. More on that in another post.


Clay is clinically ill and behaves like one. So not much I can say there. As much as I like to complain about his clinginess and stupidity, I can’t because it’s expected and it’s vital to the story. Without this trait there will be no story.

Maggie’s parents

I like how the writer makes them act like any normal parents would. She doesn’t make them the super cool parents nor the super annoying parents. They’re cool within their limits. They react to things like any parents would.

Clay’s parents

This is where my complain would lie. Not because they’re heartless, selfish, and ignorant, that’s alright to me as these traits are necessary to make the story, but because I can’t recall an explanation why they are the way they are. It would be nice to know some background information about why they behave this way.


She’s adorable. She’s such a good friend. She’s as lovable as the main character. I’m so glad the writer makes her the way she is. She makes your heart warm and bring a smile to your lips even in the darkest part of the story. Very refreshing.


He has the same effect as Rachel and doubles as an object of Clay’s jealousy. A multi purpose character! Very clever. Much better than introducing an extra character that does nothing than being a jerk who makes Clay jealous.

Ruby and Lisa

Clay’s aunt and her partner sound like really cool people. I would love to see more of their interaction with Clay and I would love to see how they stand up for Clay in front of his parents. I think these two could have been featured more in the story.

My verdict

I’d say 4.5 out of 5. It’s a pretty damn good story but there are rooms for improvements. It can still be perfected.


Light in the Shadow (by A Meredith Walters)


 “… The choices we make in your life don’t have to define us. It’s what we learn from them that’s important…”

“You are everything good in my life. Even when I thought all I had was the darkness, you were there. And you gave me something to live for. I couldn’t let you go. No matter how hard I tried. I know now that’s because to lose ou would be losing the very best part of myself”

This book is the sequel of Find you in the dark. Read this right after Find you in the dark.

The story took you on Clay’s journey to deal with his condition and to come terms with it.


Healing and Endurance. And most of all courage.

Unlike the first book, Light in the Shadow written with dual POV, giving us a glimpse on how Clay perceive everything and it makes it even more powerful as we learn to understand his thought process and his feeling.


…. Our path would never be smooth but I hadn’t lied when I said good things were never easy. And I was okay with going that hard way. Because as long as she was beside me, as long as we’re together, I knew we could face everything.

The sequel wont dissapoint you. It has a HEA ending, so its all great! I don’t think i could read it if it doesn’t guarantee a HEA. Most importantly ifs full of even more strong message of hope at the end of a tunnel. I love it!

Another 5 stars reading that i could truly say not a waste of time and worth the zombie state i was in the next day due to the lack of sleep thanks to the book.

Its not a knight shining armour saving the day kinda book, its deep and meaningful and simply real. After all, life is hardly a fairy tale. It’s all come down to how bad you’re willing to work things out for the road to happiness and this story showed that even when things seems hard and life gets tough, you could make it.


5 stars definitely! *****


Find you in the dark (by A. Meredith Walters)




“I’m not sure what’s going on with you. But I’m not going anywhere”

“Why don’t you let me decide what I deserve. Now, tell me what’s going on with you. Obviously you’re going through something and I’d like to help you if you’d let me”

The Author beautifully written this powerful story that felt real and help us to understand mental illness and how difficult the challenges that they’re facing.

I fell in love with Maggie Young straight away for the strong character, not afraid to speak her mind and has a great sense of loyalty for her friendship. Through her, I get to fall in love with Clay and all his baggage while trying to understand and accept what he faced.

Promises were easy to make but even easier to break

Its a beautiful love story of redemption, healing and courage. A very real story that brings awareness on condition that society tends to cover up and almost taboo topics for some.

I have learned that sometimes “sorry” is not enough. Sometimes you actually have to change

“I’m a mess. If I were selfless, I’d make you leave. I know I’m a lot to deal with . I’m no where close to getting handle on things. But I’m not lying when i say you make me feel like I can do it. If you’re with me, I can do anything.”

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Its written beautifully with enough sarcasm that make you smile.

I love the story.. I love the messages of the story.. Love the characters and love the author for writing such stories so beautifully.

Sometimes, love cant make everything better, and the best thing for everyone is to walk away. No matter how much it may hurt

Love! Love it!

Its a powerful story of love… Hope..among everything else! Just read it already!!

5 stars *****

‘I Don’t Know How She Does It’ movie review

I watched this movie today and tonight as I was browsing around I stumbled across its review at imdb. I was surprised it was rated so low and had bad reviews because I love love it!

Then after reading a few reviews, I realise, yes, you do need to be a mom to appreciate this movie which is really a small demographic as most moms of young kids don’t usually have the time to sit down for a cup of tea let alone watch an hour and a half movie. Usually when you have that hour and half you would rather sleep or take a shower or eat without someone climbing on your lap.

I love this movie as I can relate at so many levels. I cried and smiled at the same time as the lead mother.

Although my life isn’t nearly as hectic as Kate in the movie, a lot of elements are similar, mainly the guilt of leaving your child to go to work. I bawled my eyes out when she had to say goodbye to her kids. I feel the same way whenever I drop my son at childcare. I’ve recently gone through an internal battle of guilt when I went back to work for longer hours than last year and when I gave up the babysitter for 4 days of childcare. I was consumed with guilt, I felt like the most selfish person. The guilt has not completely gone away, I don’t think it ever will, but I’ve accepted that this is the best arrangement I can do right now and I’m committed to make up for the lost times by spending more quality times with him whenever I can.

Another thing I can relate is the whole constantly making a list thing. I have this invisible list in my head, I will always be mentally listing my meal plans, activities with my sons, doctor appointments, classes, shopping list, which toys to fix, which clothes to wear, what present to buy, drafting emails in my head, etc etc.

I thankfully has none of those competitive moms ‘friends’ but I’m often competitive with myself. I want to do the best and give the best for my son but often I can’t and it leaves me frustrated. I don’t think there are many of those ‘perfect moms’ portrayed in the movie in reality, but really it’s the inner demon of every mothers out there. You always feel that you’re never good enough.

The overly comfortable babysitter who thinks she has the best job in the world. Been there done that. It’ll be in another post.

Working in a male dominated field, that’s me. Although thankfully I have awesome boss and workmates. None of those jealous bitchy type of guys. Wish I have an assistant like Momo though! I thought she was cool.

The near miss affair with someone you closely work with isn’t me but I can understand why and how it can happen. Another post on that later.

The life always rush rush, never sits down and have 5 mins talk, never having sex, never goes on holiday together…that’s how it is in this house. Although the crazy workaholic isn’t me. It’s the other half.

Seriously, this movie is an exaggerated version of my life and many other mothers out there who’re juggling many things at once.

It makes me realise that despite no matter how crazy life gets, you must always spare a moment to be with your family as life is meaningless without them. It doesn’t matter how successful you are or how much money you have, if at the end of the day you come home to a family that’s falling apart, it’s just not worth it.

It’s one of those movies that makes you rethink how you look at life. It’s presented in an exaggerated and comedic way that it entertains and makes you laugh at the irony of being a mother.

Five stars from me. I can’t fault it!

Okay, I’m back after reading more reviews and it’s saddening that a lot of comments on the reviews turned into mommy wars and a lot of judging. I don’t think this movie is trying to portray working mom as the superior or inferior one. It’s just portraying the irony of life, and in this case, the life of a mom who works like crazy. It’s a movie, it’s meant to be exaggerated. It doesn’t claim to be a true story. Come on, really, I haven’t met a single stay home mom who goes to the gym from 9 to 2pm. It’s just a representative of the inner desire. Sure, we all want to be fit and look gorgeous all the time but none of us have the time to go to the gym 9 to 2, be it working or not working, mom or not mom.

I haven’t so far read any positive review of this movie. It’s sad! I thought Sarah Jessica Parker did a good job.

Remember When (by T. Torrest)


What’s not to love when it has such a pretty cover! I started the book and of course cursing myself the next day when I only had 3 hours to sleep. Its just one of those book, once you start.. you just cant put down.

Now before I tell you what I think of the book lets share the good stuff first.

Imagine a famous actor actually sat behind you during high school. Wait,.. not just a famous actor but a HOT looking one with a great bod. (now.. that would be a dream!)

But thats pretty much what the book is all about.

Meet Trip Wiley aka Trip Wilmington on his first day at school.


“Everyone calls me Trip”

ah.. ok.. maybe he didn’t wear THAT!! but you get what I mean.

Actually.. I was thinking of Leonardo Dicaprio especially with long hair on the front, short enough at the back thing.. plus the whole Romeo and Juliet stuff.. but hey.. Young Leo just dont have a good muscle back then and Trip suppose to have killer bod. so hahahah.. so sorry for the sub. (hey.. he’s not bad!!)


“Baby, that’s half the reason I’m applying here. You need me”


Who’s going to play in the movie version of my life story (Alyssa Milano, Maybe?)

 – Sure! why not?!

Layla grew up among boys until Lisa moved in the neighborhood.  Now, I don’t know about you but I love the heroine of the book a bit tough and tomboy (ok.. FINE!! I can relate to her well.. let just  leave it at that)

So the story took you back to the 80s during high school time so you can expect a little bit of trip down the memory lane. Let me refresh your memory a bit with this.

Are you laughing now? LOL

Like I said, you can hardly put the book down once you start, and judging from most of the review, this book also the stole lots of beauty sleep of others (certainly glad Im not the only one. If i was.. then I think I have a problem. If Im just one of many.. I guess its the Author’s problem. She’s good!!)



Ok then! Enough drooling over Trip (don’t trip yourself) haha..

Its a nice realistic love story that brings you back straight to high school and you just have to read it to know what I mean.

The story’s sequel is due to come out in June (I hope earlier) and its also now available on paperback (The cover is even prettier.. in PINK).

What do I think overall? I like it enough to search for these pics and write this review.. so what do you think? of course its good. Its not over the top and just one thing Im boiling over is the fact that it took them long enough to figure things out. But then again, in high school most of us do that.

The sequel will be years later when they met again. Yes.. yes.. he’s an A list movie star. I read the teasers and its truly a tease.. Gah! I’m definitely 1-click away in June as soon as the book live on Amazon.

hmmm ratings?

I’d give 4 stars (****)  – if Trip sat behind me in high school then maybe I would bump it up to 5 stars. Too bad he didn’t.

Fighting for Flight (by JB Salsbury)


“You’re like that single wild flower that grows from the crack in the pavement; miraculous growth with no water source or fertile soil..”

Bought this book thanks to Aesta blog book as she had it on to-read list.

First impression, I thought the book would be quite serious and heavy and have no idea what to expect. I’m not into MMA and was quite hesitated to pick up this one. But boy! I’m glad I did.

I was hooked from the first page and cursed my self for starting it so late in the night knowing I wont be sleeping till dawn (again!!). I was kinda hoping the book would be boring so I can have something to read and can put them down after few page (I know! its weird!)

With a great lead, who can put the book down after all?


Yup! Jonah “The Assassin” was a total alpha male

Then meets Raven who wears Victoria Secrets lingerie but knows her way around cars too damn well.


Of course its a love story!

Now, without giving away too much (you just have to read it for yourself!), its not a trilogy, sequel or whatever that will make you wait for months before the next book available (yipeee!!), happy ending and it has everything you wanted in a book. The laugh, the suspense (oh yeah.. there is!), the drama (hmm..), the sexy bits (not overkill.. just enough to enjoy and not roll your eyes).

But most importantly I enjoyed this book not just because of the hot guy, the dual POV and the cool chick but it has the ‘dont judge the book by its cover’ concept. A tough looking guy such as Jonah could have the biggest heart of all while an ugly sinful past of Raven doesn’t mean she’s not pure.

I’d give this book a 5 star ratings!

The Education of Caroline (by Jane Harvey-Berrick)


Semper Fidelis

Five stars rating book

I bought The Education of Caroline as soon as I woke up few hours after I finished The Education of Sebastian and of course I finished the e-book the same day, almost oblivious to my kids and husband.

If I raved about the first book, the sequel is even better!


Without spoiling the whole story, the book starts at 10 years after where fate once again brought them together once again. Misunderstanding, feeling of betrayal and hurt was there. My heart really felt for both Caroline and Sebastian.

The second book took you on a journey through Europe and Middle East with lots of moments to laugh and feeling like watching a movie. There’s moments you really wish you could skip because your heart scared to know what’s going to happen (well.. mine that is).



After everything, Im glad to be able to tell you that this story has a happy ending and will put a smile to your face for days. Personally, the book makes me smiles and recalled the feeling on falling in love, being in love and falling in love all over again.

Those who loves the raging hormones on book one won’t be disappointed with book two as there’s lots of box of condoms used in this sequel (yeah.. i know! i know!.. not fair!)

Last but not least, this series makes it to my favourite book list of all time. I have re-read them over and over and still over the moon for both of them.

One thing I do hope that this book will get the recognition it deserve so I can have them on paperback and dare I hope for a movie?  *sigh*

Did I mention I love this book? … sempre e per sempre